DIY - Just DO IT YOURSELF

This is a trend that I don't think it will lose it's flame soon. Why ? Simple. People nowadays like to be independent. Sure you can expect, ask, hire people to do it for you, or pay for things. But do you really want to? Not anymore. 

Sometimes even if they might do a better job, pride or just people you don't wanna interact with will make you choose differently. 

So, you just, do it yourself. Sometimes it feels like asking your dog to bring you your slippers and he does, but now the are all drool-y, so there's a downside. A big downside. 

Time travel comment

I was thinking this, when seeing a post

What if all geniuses are actually just time travelers? Or maybe you can only time travel one way and none takes the people that did were labeled mad. 

Or you can time travel and see the past, but cannot be seen by others since the atoms that they are made of are somewhere else in that time line. take your pick. - I feel really strong about this one

How to not feel

People say that people that have read a 100 books, have lived a hundred lives.

I don't like reading. I always fall asleep. Maybe it's my eyes, maybe I am just that person that simply does not like to read, or I just haven't found the right book. Anyway, I find myself addicted to TV series. And I found out why. I watch them, I lose myself in them and most importantly, I do not live my life when I watch them, I live the lives of the characters I am watching. Also, I am not feeling. Not feeling all the monsters I have inside.

I choose

Everything I do, I choose.
I'm starting to believe in parallel universes. I think there can be so many outcomes from a single situation, even waking up. Everyday, turns out to be a certain way because of what we chose.

Thing is, we learn fast to choose something. What would you choose: an apple or a mango? we learn to pick the most common, most familiar choice. This is also the "safer" choice. That is tthe first thing anyone would choose within a split of a second. We call these habits.

Now, let's suppose that we are trying to change some habits. I usually drink tea in the morning. If I don't drink my tea, my morning is simply incomplete, and I feel it as so. That's why you don't want to eliminate a habit, you want to change it. It is easier to tell myself, well, no more coffee, I'll drink tea. No more tea, I'll drink a lemonade. No more lemonade, I'll drink water.

I choose...
I choose to do. Stuff. All kind of stuff. Like going out, having fun, living the moment. Like actually acknowledging the moment. I am in a pub. Surrounded by people. I smell smoke. I am hearing 3 close-by conversations and many others far away. Well, not that far. And music. Good music. All this sounds a bit overwhelming since I haven't been out in...OMG it's sooo long I can't even remember. It's a few months for sure. The Long Island Ice Tea tastes great. The hot chocolate is awesome. And my friends is giving me time to write this. And enjoy it. I choose to enjoy it. My life is far from perfect. Very, very, very far. Hence the Long Island Ice Tea drink. But, I choose to enjoy it.

Money

Thinking back on my 18th birthday party (it's a big thing in my country) and my ex boyfriend's and my brother's, I did not create nice memories for myself. I always thought "my parents aren't doing so well, so why make more problems". So, for me, that birthday... Don't really remember much. I remember more of their parties. Maybe because they actually had parties.

Spending...
Money...
I should spend money on memories. Good memories. Nice memories. Memorable memories.

Challenge Everything. Challenge Everything? Challenge Everything!

Lately I find myself challenging everything. Doubting everything. Every piece of information that comes to my attention. Also I stopped doubting myself.

Five seconds ago I was wondering why. The answer just came to me: because it is an information a person wrote, filtered through their understanding of life, through their knowledge. And nonetheless it has not failed me. So much of the information I have found was wrong. And still is. And so many of the articles I have read were nothing more than just opinions. Just like this is my opinion.

More than just an opinion, this is an invitation. An invitation to don't just absorb information, but to challenge it and verify it's truthness.

I create

So, before year ended I made myself a list with all the things I know to be good for you if you do them on a daily basis. For example, eat 51% raw food, or meditate for a half hour, or do something creative that you enjoy - no pressure.

So the second day of yoga camp that this girl Adriene  is doing is called "I create". Just recently, I started creating stuff, like Christmas decorations, for 2 different rooms and a window, and I figured, I like doing it. I was so refreshing.

Another thing on my list is this blog. Writing about anything and everything that's going through my mind is quite refreshing and might I say, actually therapeutic.

[While I was thinking about what to write next, I see in the right bottom corner of this window, where I am typing this small box "Complain to Google".

Now, I find this extra funny. Because, I can complain about so many things...
My cat is scared of travelling by car, I can't find a proper job, I'm fat, I love food too much - dammit - I'm having a cold, my throat hurts, my nose is running, etc... but I don't think that is the intention]

 

Writing, creating, learning.
I am learning, for example, thanks to auto-correct that I've learnt a "typo" : I always write with a double "t" the word "writing", which is incorrect.
So, by creating, by writing, I am slowly becoming a better person. At least at spelling in English.  :)

Create away, whatever makes you feel good. :*

Granted. Grateful.

I am going through a cold right now. Nothing better than a cold to remind myself of all the things I usually just take for granted.

Now I am taking a step back and I am a lot more aware of all the things I actually do take for granted. For example:

- breathing. Painlessly. Just as simple as that. Every breath I take right now it is upsetting, but you know... you have to breath. 

Then I think of all the other things I take for granted, like my legs, my arms, fingers and toes, back, shoulders, etc. (you get the idea :P ); and recently, although I was astonished whenever I heard a teenager say "I hate my body", I found out I was just disconnected from my emotions, actions. I used to think I loved my body, but not really. So, I've been taking it for granted. Now it is time to change this. So, here it goes: 

I accept my body.

I accept my life.

I accept all the challenges that come my way.

I accept the people in my life, just the way they are.

I accept that I need to change my life style.

I accept that I need to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I need to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I need to change my life style.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

I accept that I want to change my lifestyle.

Hey, it took me 8 times to write it, but the 8th time I wrote it without making any mistakes. I just corrected them every time.

It took me 4 times to figure out that something was off and I needed a different approach. It took me auto-correct to help me spell correctly  the word "approach". 

Sometimes it just takes time and practice and help to get things done right.

So this is what I am doing. I am giving it time, I am practicing, and I am getting help. 

  

This year is YES-I-CAN YEAR!

(Thank you for inspiring me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AUJW1Kd4zik)

Buying stuff

So just recently, I've bought an indoor bike and I found myself manipulated. I found myself more likely to buy and like and cling to products that had a nice discount on their price tag.

Basically, I was more inclined to buy products that seemed to be part of a more expensive category. BUT, thanks to the internet and price comparing websites I was able to acknowledge that those were fake, so I immediately blacklisted the shops. I felt manipulated. I hate being manipulated.

Anyway, today is Saturday and my bike will arrive next week and I ca barely wait for it. Although I did just got a cold that will make it easier and less eager to mount a bike :P or do anything else for that matter.

Introduction

Sometimes I just want and feel the need to write down my thoughts. So this is what I am doing. I picked the name of my blog jaya-anwesha (victorious quest) because I will write about many aspects of my life, and I want my life to be a victorious quest :)

Also, at the time, I live in Europe, I am 26 at the present time, English is my second (out of 4) language so I will make some grammar mistakes - go easy on that please.

Today is 02.01.2016 and I want this year to achieve many goals, many are cliches but nevertheless:
1st one: I want to reach my ideal weight 59kg; I just ordered an indoor bike because I am convinced that is the best way to lose weight (for myself at least.)
2nd one is to get my degree in computer science.
3rd one is to get a job in this field and start my career.
4th one is to travel. I wanted Egypt but that's expensive for the moment at least. So I just need to figure out where I want to go. I'd like Spain because I speak Spanish, but I could also go to Portugal following the same logic. Also I've been in Spain. France. Italy. Turkey. So.. yah... Portugal sounds legit :) I guess I just decided. Portugal it is. :)
5th one: getting a car. A small, black car.